I Just Need to Vent
I know that I’ve said in the past, that I don’t want anyone’s pity. By saying that, it also doesn’t mean that that I don’t ever need to vent. Again, I still do NOT want your pity, just someone to listen to me, to understand and just offer some comfort at times. This all came about because recently I had my routine MRI done and it came back that I had a new/active lesion. Now, I haven’t had a new/active lesion in over two years, so I really wasn’t prepared for the news that came.
I can tell you that I was angry and upset, and I couldn’t tell you which emotion I was feeling more than the other, because it was just a bit chaotic, in my head. I go to see my neurologist soon, so I’m looking forward to discussing everything that is going on, and make a game plan, if we need to change anything.
There is a difference between pity and support
So back to the subject at hand… I feel that with in the past, I’ve told friends and family, that I don’t want their pity; I was being 100% honest. However, there is a different between someone showing me pity and someone just being supportive. Those times that I need to vent, please feel free to give me your opinion on the subject, maybe show me a different perspective, but PLEASE I’M BEGGING YOU, don’t try and TELL me to do something. Why? Because I’m hard headed, for one. Another reason, because it always has something to do with diet/exercise/supplement/vitamin, etc.
Don't keep things bottled up
I’m not trying to be rude by what I just stated, I’m just trying to be honest. Because, if I’m needing to vent, that means that something is upsetting me, so my emotions are off balance and there is no telling how I will ‘take’ someone ‘telling’ me to do something. I honestly think that once a week (minimum) that my best friend and I vent to each other. Mind you she has MS also, so it’s not your ‘regular relationship’, etc. However, we have found it beneficial to vent, when needed, instead of bottling it all up. I’ve bottled it all up before, and all my emotions exploded at once and I said things that I didn’t mean, and I took it out on those closest to me and that wasn’t fair at all.
Let me just share this little bit of info with you… I didn’t just ‘decide’ to start ‘blogging’ out of nowhere. I was writing down my thoughts and feelings, just to get the information off my shoulders and just put it out there, in some form. I had started blogging, because I found that I could post from anywhere… computer/phone, etc. So that I always had access to it, and so that it could also form a timeline of how I was doing/feeling.
I ended up chatting online with a support group, in a chat room, and we were giving out tips, so I shared mine. Some of my close friends were in the chat room, and asked to read what I was writing, and the rest is history.
So thank you, for everyone who reads all my vents/articles ;)
Do you bottle up your feelings or do you vent regularly?
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