Is it normal?
I have asked myself that question a million times… and I know a lot of you have as well, especially when you’re newly diagnosed. That question can cover so many things when it comes to Multiple Sclerosis in general. But what I’m really talking about is, is it normal/okay to feel a certain way when it comes to MS.
Here are a few things that I have either asked myself, or I have had someone else with MS ask…
- Is it normal to be angry?
- Is it normal to feel depressed?
- Is it normal to feel helpless?
- Is it normal to be moody?
- Is it normal to be in denial?
- Is it normal to be confused easily?
- Is it okay to cry?
- Is it okay to ask for help?
- Is it okay to have a ‘lazy day’?
- Which by the way this is resting, but others view/call it lazy day.
Anyways, that list could go on and on for a long time but I just wanted to give a few examples. So, me first say that what is really considered “normal” with life in general but asking that with MS… is there such a thing? Well, for me all of those questions above I’ve experienced… I honestly feel at times like my mood swings are going crazy with how fast they can change. So in all honesty, there really isn’t a ‘normal’ with MS… or with anyone in general.
Even if you have lived with MS for a while and are considered an “MS Veteran” in a way, it’s still normal to feel those things. Because it’s not like we get diagnosed, then we deal with it… there is no telling if or when we will have a relapse, which in a way, is like getting diagnosed all over again.
I’ve been told by a lot of people who read my blogs that I really have it together and things like that. Well, I’m glad that a lot of y’all think that… but don’t let my overall attitude about MS make you think that I don’t have my ‘bad days’, because I do…
So don’t let someone make you feel in the wrong by how you are acting, reacting, feeling, etc. They don’t know… there is no describing it. It’s hard to even fully relate to another individual with MS because the circumstances could be a lot different.
I’m not going to sit here and tell you what is and is not normal with Multiple Sclerosis as a disease, but I am going to let you know that you aren’t alone in how Multiple Sclerosis makes you feel, act, react, etc. I’ve learned to let leave it all bottled up either, I try and get my emotions out there so I’m not a ticking time bomb of pent up emotions. And by getting it out, it’s not necessarily telling someone else all the time, but just writing or going to the shooting range, or waiting till I’m alone and screaming my head off, just because I can.
So the next time you ask yourself or someone else, “Is this okay?” know that you aren’t the only one to ask yourself that question and that it’s okay to feel the things you’re feeling. Now, if you ask that questions out loud and someone tells you no, remember that they don’t know what you’re truly going through, so they can’t give you an accurate answer.
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