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Keep Fighting

Keep Fighting

Isn’t that something that we hear a lot, “don’t give up”;  “keep fighting”… and so many more. And when you think about it, what other option do we have? Yeah – we can just give up… but I’ve never been the kind of person to just surrender to a challenge.

But when you think about it more, who/what are we fighting? If you want to make it simple, we’re fighting ourselves, in a way.

Earlier on, when I had recently been diagnosed and I was suffering from a really bad relapse that put me in a wheelchair, I had people tell me to keep fighting… I would just nod when they said that, cause I felt defeated.

Now as you know, when you’re in a relapse… your emotions are everywhere and you’re upset at… everything. (At least that’s how I am)

So when I had heard, keep fighting, one too many times, I broke down. I told them, “It’s hard to win at a fight, when you’re fighting yourself.”

I understand now, that it was meant to fight to get better from the relapse that disabled me to a chair. But I was very upset then and just didn’t know what to think about anything really.

I have people tell me that I’m strong and that I have a positive attitude towards my MS… but that’s not always true.

Just as an example, I’ve had a time where I thought that I’m doing really good… my MS is in remission, I haven’t had a relapse… I’m beating this MonSter. Then I had my annual MRI done… I received the results that while I was thinking that I was beating my MS down… that I had ‘at least 7 new lesions’… That honestly was a slap in my face.

So, I guess I’m confused at times… cause I can be feeling amazing… but that doesn’t mean that my MS isn’t progressing, regardless of the precautions I’m taking. And I don’t mean to say that, to bring others down… it’s just a feeling I had.

Now I’m thinking to myself, okay… I’m fighting as BEST as I can… what else can I do? My quality-of-life has improved and if my MRI does show new lesions, at least they didn’t set me back in life and put me back in a chair. So, while the news of new lesions isn’t a good thing, I’m just going to take it, as it could have been worse.

I’ve come to the realization that no one can predict the future… in any scenario. But I can sit here and say that I WILL NOT stop fighting, no matter what. Even though I’m battling my own body… My mind set is now stronger than it used to be.

So, here is a news flash, for myself, I’m not giving up… I’m not going to stop fighting.

Here is a song that I like to think is from me to my MS.

“Roar “ by Katy Perry



Ashley Ringstaff

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  • Nobu
    10 months ago

    My DX was when I was almost 45, and prior to that thought that slowing down was age, weight or other health issue related. I used to swim every day before work, take circuit training 2 times a week, go hiking, XC skiing. MS and symptoms were a surprise. But it still took about 5 years to own my condition, I think when I finally had to give up my stick shift car and drive an automatic. I now have my second car with hand controls, my right leg is quite uncooperative. Crutches and canes galore, along with incontinence goodies. Nothing quite teaches humility like dealing with bladder issues. My best way to manage that is with a potty schedule, stray, and I pay the price.

  • sheaugst
    6 years ago

    It’s interesting to me that you have had new lesions and thought you were doing well, because I when I had a new MRI last year it didn’t show any lesions but I have had symptoms that I hadn’t had before. Like you, though, I am thankful that my symptoms hadn’t put me in a wheelchair as I was when first diagnosed almost 4 years ago. I was determined to fight that MonSter, too, and find it perplexing that it is actually a fight against myself. Thankfully, my meds seem to be working for now… Keep your chin up!

  • Ashley Ringstaff moderator author
    6 years ago

    Yeah. I guess I’m a bit weary at times, because MS has put me in a wheelchair before, right after I was diagnosed.
    My diagnosing neuro (no longer my neuro, btw) had in my records that he was significantly concerned about me having Primary Progressive MS… and was significantly concerned of severe morbidity… he stated he told me this, but he didn’t…

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