Where Do You See Yourself in Five Years?

Where Do You See Yourself in Five Years?

“Where do you see yourself in five years?”

We have all gotten that question before, right? It’s the go-to inquiry of every teacher and employer looking to size up our work ethic, goals, and values. I used to answer it without hesitation because my vision for the future was crystal clear. Just a few short years ago that question seemed easy- I would be done with graduate school (I was working towards my Master’s degree at the time) and working as a Nurse Anesthetist administering anesthesia to critically ill patients in a level 1 trauma center. It was my dream, and I had the right resume and credentials to make it an imminent reality. I knew graduate school was going to be hard, but I took it for granted that I would eventually graduate. I had always been an excellent student, and it never occurred to be that failure was an option. Then I lost the feeling in my legs, the ability to use my right hand, and then eventually my vision dimmed too. All of the sudden nothing was clear anymore.

“Where do you see yourself in five years?”

Laying in that hospital bed wearing a gown instead of a stethoscope I no longer knew if I would be walking in five years, much less be capable of maintaining a high stress career. The uncertainty was frightening. I went from not thinking twice about that simple question, to resenting it.

“Where do you see yourself in five years?”

Someone recently brought up that question during an interview for a documentary. Nobody had asked me that in a long time, and I was a little surprised that I didn’t flinch. Living with multiple sclerosis means that I now know that life is uncertain, which can be unsettling but it has also taught me a lot about myself and my character.

“Where do you see yourself in five years?”

I don’t know, and that’s a wonderful thing! Two years ago I didn’t know that attending a conference held by the MS Society would inspire me to start a blog. When I wrote my first posts I certainly didn’t think anyone other then my own mother would read them, and I never dreamed that it could lead to me writing for other websites and publications. I definitely would have thought you were crazy if you told me that I would have the opportunity to give a TEDx Talk, or speak to thousands of other people living with MS. Yes, I’m still enthusiastic and interested in anesthesia but had I remained my usually bull-headed self it would have held me back from discovering my passion. I would never have had the privilege being a Nurse Practitioner for other people living with MS, and giving them the same quality of care that I want to receive myself. However, I also never would have guessed that I would be slammed with four major MS relapses in two years, fail to respond to several different medications, or have to walk with a cane in my 20’s. Sometimes while making ambitious plans for ourselves, we fail to brace for life’s impact.

“Where do you see yourself in five years?”

No longer does that question evoke arrogance, or fear. I know there will be unimaginable challenges and triumphs ahead, and I want to face each one with an open mind. So now I simply smile knowingly to myself and say, “I guess we will find out soon enough”. I’m sure it will be one heck of a ride.

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  • lindasragens
    3 years ago

    Since my diagnosis is PPMS, my neurologist told me I would just get worse & worse with time and there is no medication to slow the progression. At this point, at age 68, I have seen my symptoms worsen over time but I’m still on my feet and for that I’m very grateful. However, every little setback, every hiccup that seems like a worsening symptom brings me fear. 5 years? I don’t even know where I’ll be tomorrow! So, with this in mind I slowly acquired he gear that I may need in the future. I bought a cane before I needed it and was really happy it was in my house when I did need it. Also, a friend was selling a used folding wheelchair and I bought it, ditto with a walker. Another friend gave me a scooter that was given to her. So, I feel like I’m ready when the time comes that I do need these things. It gives me peace of mind to be ready.

  • Johan
    3 years ago

    Hey Stephanie, I’m like you… I don’t know where I’ll be in five years. Should be interesting. I had a girlfriend once who liked the musical artist Melissa Farrick (I think her name was). We saw her near Detroit once. She was good. I liked her. Still do. Anyway… she had a song with a lyric that went something like “…wherever I end up at I just pretend that’s where I wanted to be.” Just thought I would share that with you. Thanks for posting Stephanie. Enjoy.

    JE

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