Half a year ago I have told my employer of 6 years, that I have MS. I did this, as my symptoms (mostly my walking) got worse and I had to take heavier medication. I wanted to make sure that I stay fit for work, as work is very important to me. First my 2 bosses were very understanding. But now I don’t know anymore what to think.
I have finally picked up the courage to ask for a reduction of my workload and of my hours (I work 40 hours a week and my work load has increased over last year – I want to work 35) and I presented them with a good way of managing this. All in order to make sure that I stay fit for work. A lot of people have reduced their hours in this company and so I thought I would be met with understanding.
But not so. I am the only designer and on top of always rushing, I can’t do my creative work as I have to do other non-creative stuff.
On top of that an overly-ambitious working colleague (also a designer but not employed as a designer) has taken the opportunity to do some of my very creative jobs, while I was struggling with the adjustment of my new meds and the heavy workload. I have already asked my boss what her new role is, but he didn’t want to answer. He hasn’t really complained about my work, but I feel like I can’t keep up with this competition.
The new colleague is working part-time and taking work home and I can’t and don’t want to do this. She is with us on a 2 year contract, so maybe that is why she is working so hard. But still. She is always going on about how great she is … and I feel inferior … with MS and all. Which isn’t helpful.
Do I now look for a new job where I am more appreciated or do I change the way I view myself. I am very happy for any suggestions how to best deal with this situation. :–)