It's my first day on here reading so I definitely don't feel alone at this point however I'm so overwhelmed and can't stop the tears to the point that is driving me insane. Right now I'm just hoping and praying that part of it doesn't last too much longer. And if it does just don't tell me I'll just stay oblivious for now b x😜. I actually always knew stuff like this was going to be possible I had my first hip surgery as a baby, broke my back while still in high school right after getting diagnosed with scoliosis. Couple of other small injuries and then at 33 I broke C5 and C6 with minimum damage.
I am trying to get the breathing under control so that my anxiety will calm down due to already have an asthma with allergies and South Georgia heat it all fights against each other with the anxiety. The first couple of dollar trips was due to me falling for no reason although I had been shaking for years after breaking my neck. But when my symptoms start they came out of nowhere and I feel like every one of them have hit me fast. Although I'm not scared about living or dying either or I just don't want my family to have to EVER "wipe me". As crazy as it sounds that is my biggest fear right now and I think it seems from being physically hurt as a teenager. I have sons and daughter-in-laws and a couple of grandbabies both of my parents are still alive so I definitely have support but my brain just can't even comprehend that right now.
Thanks in advance for any kind words or not so kind ones as long as it's the truth and I may need to hear it. I don't know any of you but I love you already as a family because I've already connecting so thank you and God bless!