Depression is Killing Me

. Hi Todd, I’m so sorry you are going through what sounds like a rough spot with your depression. I can’t imagine the feelings you must be trying to process during those times. Depression can be really, really hard to sort through. My heart is going out to you and I wish I could give you a big hug. I actually think of you often and try to send love and light especially since you told me about that song you love so much the last time we spoke, Matthew West’s “Truth Be Told.” I know times can be tough but please know, you have this entire community here for you anytime you need to vent, need some extra support or just need to be heard. You’re not alone here with us.
I am including a few links with some numbers for you or anyone else who is reading this, finding themselves struggling, to talk to someone immediately. https://www.nationalmssociety.org/Resources-Support/Find-Support and https://multiplesclerosis.net/coping-ms-mental-health.
If you or anyone else reading this ever feel like you need help immediately, please don’t hesitate to contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or online at http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ or any local options such as medical professionals, counselors, or support groups. Also, the Multiple Sclerosis Association of America (MSAA) (https://mymsaa.org/msaa-help/helpline-chat/) can be a great resource for the MS community.
I am sending you so much love and light Todd. You aren’t alone here in this community. 🧡
Please let us know you’re ok and if there is anything you need. We’re here for you.
Warmly, Kayleigh, MultipleSclerosis.net team

Don't do anything silly mate. With covid life has been hard enough add ms to that and yeah it can get tough if you aren't on top of it. But life is a gift, getting onto ms forums help and it's a great place to start. Talk to others, get advice, try things and watch yourself improve. Plenty of people living successfully and wonderfully with ms It's no longer the death sentence it once was.

I meet with a psychologist Friday. He was very helpful and recommended that I meet with a psychiatrist to possibly adjust my meds.

I am a few months late to respond to you but have just read your post and the comments. I found that being part of a support group has really helped me. I miss the in person interactions with MS peers. Since Covid we have conversations virtually. It is invaluable to hear others with MS discuss their challenges. I feel like people with MS just get it….their lights are on, so to say. Combining that with individual talk therapy and medication will likely help. For me the combination has helped loosen the grip by MS on my soul.