Embracing My New MS Body
I have HATED my body for the majority of my life - from head to toe. I hated it all, and I struggled with my developing body. All the curves were not something that I wanted. All my friends were petite, and here I come looking like an Amazonian. During my mid-twenties, I started to like my body. Being curvy was in, and I felt more confident. All was well, and then I had Micah. After that, I was diagnosed with MS.
Struggling with body image
I was not prepared for my new mommy body. I never had a hanging stomach, also known as a 'fupa'. Certain parts of my body became more prominent in size, like my arms and chest. I fell back into my body hate all over again. But my MS somewhat stabilizing has improved my outlook on my body. I fought to retain full use of my body. No matter what it looks like, I want to embrace myself completely.
Living life to the fullest
Also, social media has been promoting a 'hot girl summer'. Women are ready for the streets since we have been locked indoors for over a year. Most people have gained weight during the pandemic, and we are showing our bodies without shame. This new movement has given me a boost not to be ashamed or embarrassed. 2020 was one of the most brutal years of my life. My diagnosis and difficult symptoms made life almost impossible. I made a vow to try my best to live life to the fullest in the future. My future with MS is uncertain; I can't afford to waste time hating myself.
Tips for embracing your MS body
So how am I combating my new MS body, you ask? I am stepping out of my comfort zone. I am buying clothes I was too afraid to wear out of fear. Though I still struggle with feeling insecure, I feel very invigorated. For example, wearing a two-piece bathing suit on vacation. I put it on and wanted to run and hide. All I could focus on was my cellulite. But I shook it off and I had fun with my friends. By no means am I saying it's easy! I doubt EVERY SINGLE OUTFIT I put on. I am trying my best to be my best self.
I wanted to share this experience with everyone for multiple reasons.
- You are not alone in your insecurities. I know it is hard, and plus-size bodies sometimes are not viewed as beautiful. I'm here to tell you that your body IS BEAUTIFUL!
- This is our year, regardless of what anyone else has to say. 2020 was a challenging year for everyone. It is the time to live your life the best way you can.
- BUY THAT OUTFIT, AND WEAR IT! I promise you that you will love it. I know it seems scary and you are unsure. GET IT ANYWAY!
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