"So just to make it clear I am not planning on doing anything to myself. I just feel like giving up and giving in because people think I can accomplish more. I go to college at the age if 65 to get my massage licenses. Do to a bad attack on my eye and relapses I am more then exhausted. I Also have a bedridden mother with dementia that I see 2 to 4 times a week fighting the whole damn system to make sure she gets cared for. Including preventing an intentional stravation attempt on her while I was doing finals. The stress levels for the last 4 years have just taken me down to being in a place of wanting to through in the towel sort of speaking. I am so exhausted with no understanding from anyone including doctors. I just want go to bed and let nature take it's course whatever that will be. To tired to care. "