Dying yet living with Love.
My story begins very early stage. I will give a short version, as I'm writing a book. No one could understand, why I was accident prone. Fire prone. Mum used to keep me away from fire especially. Pain horrendous with my joints. No pain killers gave relieve. Morphine given as I used to take a hammer hitting my legs/joints. Rheumatoid arthritis, thyroid problems, then leukemia - survived all these. Married. Lost six children still births. Never gave up. Wanted my own child. Pray ,belief in super power, miracle boy born alive, even though I lived on only milk & rice nine months or more. Son would only live on milk & rice too till 8 yrs till I put him to boarding school.
Problems. Every moment of fatigue, fibromyalgia, only one doctor in Perth came up with MS. I couldn't believe it that my myelin sheath is giving me trouble. Now nearly 68 yrs old... I have been in a wheelchair... I use a walker regularly, do hydro 5 times a week. Keeps me going. Looking after my cancer/open heart surgery hubby with severe neurological problems in a wheelchair too. He is very kind, knows when I can't do much, must rest... or my condition worsens. My heart-atrial fibrillation-on Warfarin, PE& DVT, Asthma, severe car accident in 200, paralyzed, been blind for six months... I feel at times Im dead now, I can't get up... In winter can't move even in bed. Summer, heat gives anxiety, had epileptic fit, on crutches at home.... Every day I feel I'm dying ...but I'm still living. I never tell anyone I have MS... As no one believes me except my professional colleagues. Yes, I'm retired naturopathic physician. Taking, trying new alternative meds & give myself acupuncture when in pain or think I'm dying now ... Yet I'm living till now. All by sisters/brothers died very young age.. Why am I still alive I think I still help people in need, forgetting my own suffering, most of the times. So I believe many people feel they are dying each day yet like me they are living... Three Cheers MS!!! Anna
Does listening to music help lower the severity of your stress or MS symptoms?