Feeling very depressed
Last updated: July 2016
Hi everyone, I was diagnosed at 16 with MS. I am now 36, and doing pretty well with it (knock on wood, fingers crossed, etc...). I lost my father when he was 47 to this disease, I was just turning 13 at the time. I've had a lot of ups & downs in my life as I'm sure all of you have had. Lately, I'm feeling very, very unhappy. Like the whole world is caving in on me. No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to get ahead. Every time I turn around, there's another doctors bill to pay, something goes wrong with the car, an extra bill pops up. I was on my way to a career in nursing when I fell very ill and had to be admitted in a hospital. Needless to say, I was never able to make it back to finish school in nursing, however I did receive my Associates Degree. Bottom line is I had a career I was working towards to be sure I could care for my child with no help from others. A life that I would work hard at and be able to live comfortably. I feel that this is not what I had in mind as my life. No money, can't work, late on bills all the time, feeling worthless. I know money isn't everything, and I should be grateful that I have a roof over my head and food in the house. I should be grateful I'm not as bad as others are, and I truly am!! But I can not stop thinking about how I want to be able to go places & do things while I can...and I can't. Anyone else going through anything like this?
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