Hate feeds on MS...
The sooner you accept this disease. The sooner you'll get on with your life! Do what you can when you can do it, if you can't except your limitations and rest. Sure I want to have Thanksgiving dinner and Christmas too but I can't so I no longer worry about it. If you have to sit while others are cooking that's okay don't be so hard on yourself because they will understand if they really love you.
It was a lesson I had to learn and it was a hard one, but I Move On and don't feel guilty anymore. If you have a MS stress is your enemy, so why stress over holidays it's not worth it. I have had MS since 1976 and it took me many years of stressing over something that I had no control over, so I quit.
How many specialists did you see before finding "The One"?