I feel exhausted at the moment... but reading a lot of the stories here really helped me. I am not alone :–) Thanks!!!
My whole life changed
I was diagnosed with MS at Xmas 2008, and my whole life changed. At the time I was living in London, had a partner, a job, and loads of good friends. But with the diagnosis I had to move back to my parents' (they do not live in London), as I could not walk and did live alone. Then after three months my partner left me. It was too much for him. And I also lost my job.
Back on track
Since then I have worked hard to get my life back on track. I did not return to London, but I found a new job in a smaller town. I also moved into a nice little flat and I now have a new network of friends. Which is great.
I sometimes feel very lonely and it is a struggle to get out of bed and into work in the morning. I do love my work, but I am tired of doctors appointments, meds and struggling when walking. It feels all too much. I know things could be a hell of a lot worse, but I guess I am just tired. It feels a bit like a depression... unfortunately we have depression in the family.
Sometimes I wonder if I am not strong enough, wonder why I can't be more upbeat. After all, feeling miserable does not really help. But after reading a few posts here, I am glad to know that what I am feeling is "normal" under the circumstances. Thanks.
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