Malaise

I don’t know if it’s because today is the shortest day of the year or I’m not feeling well or that I’m exhausted or that I’m sad that Christmas is coming or that I visited my Uncle yesterday and I’m sad about his situation. I don’t know if it’s the MS or the Fibromyalgia or that Christmas is coming or that Christmas isn’t the same without a tree and all the trimmings or that I wouldn’t have the energy to even do it. I don’t know if it’s because my house is a mess as is my head or that I have a pile of dishes to wash. I don’t know if it’s because some Christmas songs make me cry or that I won’t get to see my Meghan this Christmas. I don’t know if it’s because I’m mad at myself that my house is a mess and I have a sink full of dishes. I don’t know if it’s because my cousin has the world on her shoulders and I can’t help. I don’t know what it is but I know that all I want to do is go back to bed, cover my head and sleep until 2017 and pray that it will be better than 2016 has been. This blog post is giving me all the feels. All the feels suck. Life sucks sometimes, like right now.

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  • DonnaFA moderator
    2 years ago

    Hi dsdumpling, I’m so sorry that you are having “the feels” today. They do seem to be extra potent this year. From your story it seems like your thoughts may be doing what mine like to do, buzz around like a swarm of angry bees.

    All of the things that you’ve talked about are so difficult to deal with by themselves, in combination, they can seem insurmountable. Please know that you’re not alone. We’re here to share support, and to lend a friendly ear. Please don’t hesitate to reach out here, or on our Facebook page when you need to chat.

    Please be gentle with yourself. Take time to appreciate your strength, and clear your mind to find some much deserved peace. Please check out 7 Ways to Fight Stress and Anxiety
    Five Ways to Help You Feel Less Overwhelmed With MS and Stress. And remember that we’re here when you need to chat. -Warmly, Donna (MultipleSclerosis.net team)

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