MS is a Horrible “Friend”

I have been diagnosed with MS since 2009. I thought I had it under control. NOPE! My youngest child has 3 babies. They are the youngest of all the grandbabies. Mind you, I have a 23 yr old, 21 yr old, then drop down to 14(x2), 12(x3), 10 (x2), 8 (x2), 6(x2), 3, 2(x2), and a 1 year old. And four more that we took on as “foster” grandparents when my brother-in-law and sister-in-law both passed. So here is my issue, I love my grandchildren and would give my life for them. But I can’t handle being around more than two at a time. My concentration is horrible, and I “zone out,” and then my kids get upset because I am not paying attention to the kids who really miss me. I am now on Ocrevus but with respect to these issues, it doesn’t seem to help. I wish we knew what causes MS and fixed it. I miss doing the things with the little ones that I have done with the older ones.