Grieving Through My MS Storm

When there's a gentle breeze in the air, we just embrace it! When it rains with a mist, we embrace it! When there's a thunderstorm without the lighting, we can even embrace that!

Yet, when a real storm comes, like a tornado, it can cause loss and destruction, such as losing your home, losing your car, losing everything you own, and, so then, all you have left is the clothes on your back.

Grief that comes from loss

You might think that grief is only for losing someone you love. Well, guess what? It's not only for losing a loved one! It is devastating to know that everything you have is gone. You're now suffering and, perhaps, should do grief counseling. Grieving is going through loss. It's also denial; it's anger; it's pain; and it's accepting change.

The storm of grief with MS

Well, the multiple sclerosis diagnosis is a storm of all of grief and more. Those who have truly had the major problems of MS can relate to this.

It's okay when you think something is temporary, or you think what someone else's experience, bad as it is, won't be your storm. Actually, no one has that answer when you live with MS.

It's true the medication for MS has prevented tsunamis, floods, and even some severe tornados in our lives. However, no one truly understands what storm is raging in our bodies but God.

Relapse hits like a storm or volcano

My storm laid dormant for 15-16 years. Just like cancer, I came out of remission. And, Mount MS became more volatile after I received the covid-19 vaccination shot.

I'm now in a wheelchair and can't walk.

You see just because you can't see my storm, it doesn't mean that my storm isn't attacking, just like a tornado, causing destruction in my body.

I guess the saying,"Don't judge a book by it's cover," is very true. Because one thing is definitely true, I don't look like my storm."