You Have to Learn to Live with This

You do have to learn to live with it, crucially, live and learn. Daily, I am battling to live and learn with them. The more I absorb, the more I suffer.

My mind and body are fighting

Alongside with MS, I have autism, narcolepsy, and ADHD. I have had so many issues with them. I also have bilateral collecting kidney stones and ovarian cysts. But I'm learning, everyday. My ADHD brain says, 'you need to do this' but my body won't let me. My ASD brain says 'you don't know anyone,' but my MS body says, you can't do this alone. Having actual arguments with mind, body, and soul is so draining.

It's ok because I'm still here

I accept that I cannot. I strive to do everything I can. I have young children and am creeping up to 11 years diagnosed, and I am currently pregnant. Now my MS body wants to do everything, and my pregnancy body says, 'not today.' I try and I fail, and that is ok because I'm still here.

My words to live by

For years, I focused on the 'what can I do when' or 'what happens when I' or 'when will this happen?' I can't hold my urine anymore, and I live in pain, and I am so unhappy with myself. So I try and still fail. I try, I really try to keep the mentality that there's always someone worse off. Someone somewhere is happy with less than I have. I'm a humble person with so many challenges. The day-to-day is never easy, but if I can give anyone advice, it's never punish yourself. You're growing and you're learning. Accept what is and strive to be what you try to be. You walked steps today; you should be proud. You managed to use the catheter today; be proud. You ate without choking; be proud. Put all your positivity into the universe and tell yourself daily, I can do this. This could be anything. Pace yourself, love yourself, and stop punishing yourself.

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