I have always been an upbeat type, no matter what was going on in my life. I denied nothing, but ignored lots. With MS, there is no possibility of denial. With PPMS, anyone can see the obvious, so denying it is useless. I never denied the issues over the years before it turned to PPMS, trying to find a doctor to tell me what the hell is wrong with me was an exercise in futility When I moved to Alberta 24 years ago, my new doctor told me it was probably emotional. After two years I got mad and told him to send me to someone that could help me. He finally sent me to a sports doctor telling her I had muscle issues so she put me with her PT. It took the PT all of ten minutes to determine it was neuro, not muscle related. The doctor sent me to neuro and within a week I had two MRIs one on my brain and one on my spine. There it was and by that time it had already progressed to PPMS. Dealing with it is hard sometimes, but I am still pretty much upbeat. I am stubborn and still doing my best to be independent. I also realize that as I get older, and I am already old, just turned 74, it will not get better and I don't look forward to that, but in the meantime I push myself basically to satisfy myself.