After a lifetime of abuse, failed marriages , taking charge of my life and myself. Finally being free and in a brand new town ,house and starting my life again . I began to fall without tripping or for any obvious reason I had feelingslike i was on a trampoline when walking. I decided to take myself to the doctors. He sent me for urgent mri scan ,bloods and this showed ms lesions on my spine and in my brain. It was primary progressive multiple sclerosis.
Although this was a devastating diagnosis I wanted to try to take charge of it . I always try to be positive no matter what happens to me . It felt that I just had a new abuser but this time I was ready for what ever it throws at me . I am not going to lie ,some days my pain and fatigue are really extreme and I can't do much of anything . I choose those days to just rest on the sofa.
My 2 children who are both adults are dealing with their own issues my son is autistic, my daughter has severe anxiety . So its down to me myself and I to deal with everything.
As well as helping them but that's OK . I have declined slowly and will have to just take each new challenge and deal with it as much as I can.