I Will Be Silent No More
I thought I would try this blog again, because of so many responses I received from so many MS warriors.
I met an elderly couple at a church function the other day. I walk with a cane, so naturally, people assume I am completely handicapped. I guess I am in a way, but in my mind, I feel like I always used to. This couple asked me what happened to me, because I looked too young to walk with a cane. I said that I like my cane. I feel like I rock the cane, and I am starting a new trend. Although, I move a lot like Johnny Depp did in Pirates of the Caribbean. Most people would most likely think I was pretty drunk, if I didn't use a cane.
After the woman asked me what happened to me, I told her that I am an American Soldier, and now God wants me to fight MS instead of the enemies of freedom. She asked me how it was that if I have so much pain, how could I continually smile. I told her it is because I know what I want most in this life. Because, I know what I want more than anything else, and that I know that I already have it. I know that I have a family that lives me and that our relationship will last forever. I know that families are forever.
There is a scripture in the New Testament, the First Epistle of James, chapter 1:2-6, where James begins to tell the secret to true happiness. He says,
"2 My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations (tribulations);
3 Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
4 But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
5 If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
6 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed."
Since my diagnosis, I have been in a constant state of pain. My headache never goes away, and according to my doctors, there exists no cure for my condition. Well, I won't except that. There is no such thing as instant patience, they are a contradiction of terms. I am patient. I want nothing, because I already have everything I want.
I am a father. I have four children and they are as the Kingdom of God. I live in the greatest country in the world, and I have the greatest neighbors in three world.
I am not my body, I am a son of God, and he has felt everything I have felt or ever will feel. He suffered for all mankind, am I greater than He? I am happy and grateful for my pain, because my pain or trials have brought me closer to my Savior than ever before.
This is the key to overcoming your trials, whatever they may be. If you lack wisdom as to how to understand your trial, you must Ask God, the Eternal Father for wisdom, and he will grant it to you, liberally.
This is how I keep smiling, and have no sorrow for my situation. If you don't believe in God, I would exhort you to ask God if he really is there? And if he is there, what lessons do I need to learn from my circumstance.
I know God lives and he answers my prayers, he will answer yours. God bless you all.
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