During conversations I find myself saying every so often, "there was a time"....
In this case, there was a time when I didn't dislike people as much as I do now. Most people can not be trusted 100%. Most people have a phony side. Most people are not loyal. Most people are not REALLY understanding or compassionate. That goes for people we are related to and people who we know as "friends", neighbors.
NO ONE understands the challenges and the misery of Multiple Sclerosis. It is indeed for many, invisible. No one see's the PAIN, the numbness, the tingling, the tinnitus, the eye problems, bowel and bladder problems, weak for a few days, strong for a few days, energy one day, totally weak the next, depression, the frustration.
My neighbor glancing at me with a look of ....I don't know...distaste, thinking I must be a lazy person who couldn't care less about what my front yard looks like because nearly a month ago I went outside, started clipping the hedge on my front fence and had to STOP, walk away, go back in the house and remain there for the next three weeks because I suddenly got very weak, felt like I hadn't slept for a month and fatigue quickly set in and I was stuck in my house for nearly three weeks before being able to go back outside and do something useful.
I hear people say every so often, "I wouldn't wish my pain on anyone..."
Well, I'm here to say, I WOULD!
I definitely would like to have people who are ignorant and judgmental suffer what I go through every single day of the year. Not just with MS, but throw in my arthritis, compression fractures in my spine and IBS. Then, get outside and do what I do at 75....shovel snow, use a big heavy snowblower, climb a ladder, clean gutters, mow the lawn, clip, cut and plant. I certainly don't do these things very quickly anymore and sometimes they don't get done all at once but I make an effort. I think I'll have a t-shirt made up that says, "EITHER HELP OUT OR SHUT UP!!"