One of my parents is dying. They live 14 hours away by car. Some in my family expect me at the funeral. I want to go but I am on an immunosuppressing drug and I just can't risk flying or taking the train. Driving is out of the question due to stamina and spasticity. I am a single mother and have been extremely careful because of covid. I don't want my daughter's life to be upended if I were to be hospitalized. One sister lives two hours away, I did not attend her wedding at at he beginning of the pandemic and our relationship suffered. I cannot ask her for a ride when the time comes, i have been discouraged from asking her for a ride previously by the dying parent. But I fear I will cause a lot of hurt feelings again by not attending the funeral. I want to go and I want my daughter to go but it is once again too risky to travel now that Evusheld is ineffective and the new variant has taken over. Also, my physical limitations have increased. Overdoing it is easier now and I fear relapse. So I am trying to not feel guilty, I know I shouldn't. I am trying to accept that there may once again be hard feelings but I need to do what is best for my immediate family and accept that they just can't understand. It is an added layer of grief on grief.