I’m reaching out on this forum because I need verification that I’m not crazy or that I am.
Back story : married in 2008, lost my first with to GBM ( brain cancer) in 2017. Everything with health declined since then. Diagnosed with PPMS in 2018. Went from normal 100% to walking with a walking stick, to a cane to a rollator and don’t know what’s next. On ocrevus, ampyra, baclofen, lyrica, and a myrad of vitamins. Got re married at 40. Second wife also 40. Spoke about kids when we started dating but I assumed the rapid decline was enough of a reason why a baby is a bad idea. She has back problems, depression and well she always states that this is something she always wanted. We got a therapist, and it just seems that no one understands that it’s hell just getting Up in the morning. Left arm and hand is constantly numb. Issues urinating and always tired. Better from 0400 to 1500 then useless. I’m not scared for myself. I have to play the hand I’m given. Worried that I’m no help with a baby; I hold something and 9 time out of 10 it ends up on the floor. Walking just to get into and out of work is a total stress factory. I tried to come up with a solution of adopting an older kid, no crying, no diapers. Wife was ok one week then not and wants a baby the next. All this stress isn’t helping.
So question : am I nuts that there’s too much wrong with us ? Or am I nuts thinking that we can’t do it ? Looking for some advice here as I’m getting to the end of my rope.
Thanks in advance