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Overwhelmed and scared

Hello all, I'm new to the forum. My wife was diagnosed back in 2006 and has slowly been progressing down the path of losing her ability to walk.

I've been doing everything I can to help her. We've installed a stair lift in the house, a handicap accessible shower and recently installed a chair lift outside so she can get outside.

Very recently, she's been having more issues. Her left leg has started becoming more spastic. She's on Baclofen for that, but it doesn't seem to help.

It is to the point now where she has trouble standing and transferring from the bed to her chair and chair to the toilet.

I just don't know what to do now. I work full time and can't stay home to care for her and I ear too much money to have the state help with in-home care for her. her sister is eager and willing to help, but we are at a point how where her mobility is causing issues.

What do I do? Where can I go to get help? I'm so frustrated right now that it is literally bringing me to tears.

Please help.

Thank you,

Craig Brauckmiller
Shirley, MA

  1. Hi Craig,
    Thank you for posting. First off, I'm sorry to hear all that you and your wife are going through. As you know, the role of primary caregiver is very challenging. There is a community of caregivers here that might be able to offer support and suggestions. You might be able to ask your wife's physician about possible care resources. Sometimes, pursuing options through your insurance company can be fruitful. Being the squeaky wheel pays off once in awhile! Our community member, Donna Steigleder, is a caregiver for her husband. She has written many helpful articles on this topic. Here is one -- If you type "caregiver" into the search box on the upper right side of the homepage, lots of articles on the subject will pop up. Beyond that, it sounds like you are exhausted, physically and emotionally. I am so glad you made the effort to reach out! Self care is vitally important for caregivers! You might post on our Facebook page, too (it's on Facebook). Many of our community members post and read frequently on it. The community here is always available for support or for a place to talk and share your thoughts and feelings. You can also check out this article about the Caregiving Action Network (CAN), caregiving and support network that you might find helpful -- Please keep us posted! Thank you again for sharing. We're glad you're here. Thanks, Erin ( Team Member)

    1. Craig, Sorry to hear about your plight. I was where you are about 9 years ago. My spouse's MS became aggressive 2 years after diagnosis. My suggestions: Check with the MS Society in your area to see how they may be able to help. They also may be able to connect you with people/resources in your area that can help with in-home care for your wife. Also, it would be worth your while to consult with an attorney that specializes in estate planning. They are very much in the know when it comes to what may be available to you living in the state of Massachusetts and your situation of earning too much to qualify for Medicaid (each state varies with what is available). I would also be proactive with her neurologist and find out from him/her what other medications are available for her if her current treatment doesn't seem to be stabilizing her.

      1. Craig, (addendum to last message),

        If your sister in law is eager to help, make sure she has the assistive devices/equipment in-house that will allow her to care for your wife more efficiently.

        1. Thanks all for the replies.

          Since I wrote this post, I had to take her to the ER. She was extremely lethargic and didn't eat for 3 days.

          Well, it turns out that she had a pretty serious UTI and may have taken too much of the Baclofen. She was in the hospital for 5 days and has now been transferred to a rehab facility. We've got VNA also lined up for when she is released.

          At some level, I'm relieved this happened because it really did get the ball rolling and a lot of experts have gotten involved and have been very helpful. I don't feel as overwhelmed as I did, but I still worry for her and it kills me see her suffering. If I could change places with her, I'd do it in a heartbeat.

          Wish us luck and thanks for the advice.

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