But when you consider the conditions you were dealing with WHILE you were working six days a week, 12 hours a day, do you think you're being unduly hard on yourself? Probably the MS and the other illnesses you have at the same time contributed to the impact your morbidities and co-morbidities and anti-morbidities had on you? We typically have only the one body to accommodate ALL the conditions we're dealing with, not to mention the mental illnesses and developmental difficulties and tom foolery the flesh is heir to. I only recently acquired a newish diagnosis for difficulties I have had with executive function for the last 78 years....as my husband once remarked about something entirely different, "Tell it to take a number and wait its turn!"